The identity crisis.

Isolated for blaspheming against the god of the fundamentalist rather than helping people making their faith stronger from a lower church point of view, a view which the people of the lower church in Pakistan also fail to realize. I would like to thank the conservatives from the days of golden age of Islam for excluding 'ijtihad' (reform) and making their values the law for successive generations. (Pretty much like Evangelical Christians are likely to label Christ a hippie and a wuss.)

Had things been different, there wouldn't have been far less discrimination against women, ethnic minorities and most importantly people who are abnormal to well over 90% people in Pakistan, yes. The homosexuals.

At this stage of my life, sometime ago. I thought i have actualized myself enough that i can influence the society's future sufficiently by merely being myself but when reality touched me with it's cold feet on my warm back, i realized i'm in a big bowl of crap. Now, i feel helpless and everyday is the same, moreover i crave inspiration.

Considering recent events in the previous. I really imaging Hitch to be playing word games and talking about what really happened with god.

The blog entry's title is simple and the first paragraph is a testament to it. "My doggerel language portrays my going zigzag" but in the end of the day one thing is for sure, this crap, i'm certainly not the only one. People who like to pose between two girl friends of theirs for a Facebook display picture are also putting 'niqab' on their crap and leading normals days offline trying to find who they are, just like me. Another thanks to the conservatives from the golden age of Islam.

Thank you for listening to me in my crisis. Pakistan se zinda bhaag. Pakistan Paindabaad.

"Like a genius kid who used to ask while pointing towards the furniture parts 'ye kon ai?', like a kid who likes to walk backwards in a running train."

And finally, i repeat "The fundamental cause of trouble in the world today is that the stupid are cocksure while the intelligent are full of doubt. - Bertrand Russell."